Sometimes I just wanna shout out at the top of my lungs “FUCK EVERYONE” there is honestly not ONE person that is supossed to be friend thy hasn’t made me feel bad about myself, alone or just unwanted…it’s quite sad…I mean I love them and appreciate them but sometimes I just sit there and wonder am I reall not good enough? Why is everything fine one second and then the moment someone else comes along I’m just thrown aside like trash…like I don’t even exist..I’m sick and tired of it I really am…I mean I don’t mean to sound like an attention whore or anything but sometimes I feel like people don’t even realize how much there actions affect me..I wish I didn’t had to be this way…I really really wish I didn’t care..but Idc…I just feel like all my friends secretly hate me…like I’m not good enough for anyone. Sometimes I wish I could just move far away…get away from everyone and everything…start fresh…and maybe once I’m gone people will appreciate me….or maybe their lives will probobly just get even better….gosh I really hate myself…I really do…everything about me disgusts me…and I don’t know what I can do about I really dont…everytime I try to finnally open up and tell people how I feel ik alway interrupted…I don’t think it’s healthy for me too have all this horrible thoughts in my head…I really really REALLY need professional help…at least then it would feel like someone cares..even if I am paying them.

27th May 2012 | 3 notes